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Archive for January, 2009
a latent function
Posted in Poetry with tags cosmic, emotions, feeling, internal, latent function, life, thoughts on January 9, 2009 by drevolutionary1sometimes i feel like i can’t take it no mo’
been searching seeking hi and lo
i’m floating in space above my thoughts
looking down at the battle hard fought
a tumultuous time I faced
always seemed straight-laced
but a cloud, a haze made haste
from order, laying waste
but time, yes time will suffice
to restore that cosmic balance
tantalizing stars entice
me to extend my valance
atoms collide, an internal reaction
chemicals combine to my satisfaction
what results is feelings and emotions
ensuring an everlasting chain of devotions
going thru the motions
an ocean
swimming high on the surf
now i retire—this my turf!
una poema para el inseguro
Posted in Poetry with tags amar, amor, calor, corazon, inseguro, poema, Poetry on January 7, 2009 by drevolutionary1Yo sé que tú ya no sabes
Estás inseguro como te sientas
Inseguro que yo sea lo que quieres
Pero, debes saber
Si te amara, yo te amaría sin limite
Una fusión de alma y corazón
Me sentiría que todo tiene razon
Si me quisieras, volaríamos—¡apurate!
Ven a mis brazos, no hay dolor
Abrázame, siente mi calor
poe-tato, po-tawto
Posted in Poetry with tags objectivity, Poetry, subjectivity on January 7, 2009 by drevolutionary1I call it opportunity
you call it calamity
am I misguided
or are you too certain?
convexity, concavity
bend to my reality
events put together
in a subjective fashion
the puzzle solved, yet unsolved
life is a perilous journey all embark
who knows what lies ahead
for we know what lies behind
what I would give
Posted in Poetry with tags Love, poem, soul, spirit, warm on January 7, 2009 by drevolutionary1what I would give for
his warm embrace for
arms wrapped around
a smile that reaches down
in my soul and stirs
takes away my fears
and dries my tears
gentle hands of wisdom
caressing my head
helping me overcome
accepting truth instead
I know that he is mine
when I look into his eyes
I’ve no need to pine
my head is in the skies
riding this love train
with a buzz in my brain
destination: exultation
the nature of hatelove
Posted in Poetry with tags fair, hate, humanity, injustice, justice, Love, mother earth, unfair on January 6, 2009 by drevolutionary1/Dusty dry soil of oppression
abounds on this earth.
the
/rivers of justice roll
bringing up the
/silt of human decency.
sin(u)
Posted in Poetry with tags brown, curves, flow, sine, sinuous, sweet, warm on January 6, 2009 by drevolutionary1from the slick of your back
to the warmth of your flesh
the sheen of your hair
piercing brown eyes stare
skin the color of my coffee
tastes as sweet as it too
is all your sugar for me?
not one lump but two
the curve of your nose
and the curl of your toes
lines of your body sinuous
flowing gently, continuous
your lips against mine
a hair raising event
chills down my spine
flow like a current
caressing a sea of brown
a sea in which we drown
from the fruits of labor
the love-wine we savor
reflections on human will and ‘The Force’
Posted in 2009 Resolutions, Health/Fitness, Personal Life, Sci-Fi with tags jedi, Jensaarai, self-love, sith, sleep, Star Wars, the force, weight-loss on January 6, 2009 by drevolutionary1Oh George Lucas, thank you for Star Wars!
I think one of your best creations are the Jedi. I love what they represent. Jedi can access a supernatural essence called ‘The Force’ that can allow great mental and physical enhancement by using:
- patience
- calm
- equanimity
- control
- discipline
I think these are all traits for which we strive. Contrast this with the Sith, who can also access the force, but using:
- anger
- fear
- disorder
- chaos
- hatred
We all have a little Jedi and Sith inside of us.
The question is, to what extent are the two balanced? To what extent is it healthy to follow each set of values? Somehow using the dark side always ends up in someone’s hands being cut off:
But I digress. Of course Star Wars draws it’s concepts from other mythology and belief. I’m thinking Yin and Yang here (many others I’m sure).
So how do I want to harness ‘the force?’ I think the force is analogous to our spirit and willpower. I could focus my being and energies on chaos and incite mass destruction and achieve great results. On the other hand I could employ great control and discipline and channel my intelligence to creating a cure for diseases.
I want to be more Jedi-like because I sometimes have a problem with discipline and will power. There are several goals I have for 2009 for which developing Jedi-like habits will help:
- learn to love myself more: some housekeeping is in order!
- lose weight: I’m currently around 300 lbs. Let’s set a modest goal of 30 lbs loss before graduation (May 9, 2009)
- develop healthy sleeping patterns: bed by 12 at latest
- change what/when/why/how often I eat: to supplant my plans to lose weight. Modifying these factors can really have an effect on metabolism
- finish off my last semester: so I can graduate
- finish a short term project of my research at school
- achieve acceptance into a post-bac program
- get a 30 – 35 on the MCAT
- complete MD/PhD applications
It is most important however, in any endeavor to have balance. Both the Jedi and Sith were extremes of ideals. This was never mentioned in any movies, but in the Star Wars universe, there also exists the Jensaarai. They mixed Jedi and Sith teachings. I think they are more accurate presentation of how one may control or use the force. In my goals I will keep balance in mind.
Now. Let’s get crackin’!
a retarded cosmic phenomenon
Posted in Personal Life on January 5, 2009 by drevolutionary1The overall state of affairs of my love life is pretty sucky as of late. For a while now, I’ve been ‘searching’ for someone to love. I’ve been out on numerous dates, but nothing has come to fruition. Usually the other person doesn’t return calls or IMs if they’re not interested instead of being upfront. Some are more direct about how they feel, but very rarely. Eventually things just fall off. One sometimes can’t help get the feeling he were being led on (one particular case lasted about a month or so).
I realized that I’m tired of this crap if this is all I’m gonna get in the end.
The votes are in though, and it seems just as this realization comes to me, some close friends are telling me the same. More specifically that maybe I shouldn’t ‘search’ for someone.
I’ve been on lots of dates but nothing has ever come to fruition. I really feel the way I do because I long to be with someone. I’ve never been in a relationship. But sometimes I wonder if it healthy for me to want this. Do not humans long to be with someone to express their love and be intimate with? I guess it’s to what extent one will go to achieve that goal. I just feel like for the moment that I want to throw in the towel and focus on me.
I guess the one thing I overlooked about Chakotay and Kellin is that they met by chance. Chakotay could have been trying to date everyone—searching for love on-board Voyager—but he didn’t. By chance he met that Ramuran woman and they fell in love.
Shout out to Max for his advice in the comments of my last post:
I beleive Love is the one thing you can’t search for, it’s almost better when it stumbles upon you.
Talking with another one of my friends he said something similar:
…Often times love comes when you least expect it. Once you stop looking, it may find you. That is a retarded cosmic phenomenon, but it seems to be true.
Now time to focus on me.